In Mi Mind

For someone who is almost like air, I give my self whole heartedly...A smile steals the breath from my heart like a kiss steals the life out of that one moment in time. They say that loving someone is giving them the ability to hurt you but trusting them not to...But I dont love you, you have estranged me in the depths of this world to fend for the heart of misery. To kill me is to lie to me...and I wish to know you no more..for what you have brought to me is a sacrafice that I wish to no longer take part...If I was your women...I may say. You dont know me...Fuck her go be with her maybe where I stand but I'm piecing together the image in mi mind letting go of the one person who has locked them self in my happiness...It's not fair...But since when have I ever recieved what I really and truely desired. Why does it seem like every prayer that I pray to make everyting betweens where I stand a positive paradise seems to shatter its self in self loathing pitty and depression and a wish that you were DEAD...Maybe I paint in mi mind a mirage of bliss...Earth is hell I have come to understand...I am forced to bear the pain of that of which I endure. I am holding on to a saving grace of enrhiched mortality...hoping that maybe I can trust you...